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chapter 2 : HURTING MYSELF.

when you're younger, things are just so much simpler,
arent they? most of us feel good about ourselves, and we
havent become super self-conscious. relationships with
the opposite sex are less complicated because no one has
"those" feelings yet. but once we hit puberty and middle
school, we get slammed. suddenly, just about everything
feels more complicated, and the reflection in the mirror
doesnt always resemble the person we feel like inside. and
at a time when we're desperately trying to figure out who
we are, for some people the pressure is too much and
they start hurting themselves as a way to deal with the
confusion they're feeling.

no matter how strong or self-assured we are,
with the right kind of pressure, and the right timing,
many of us can be talked into doing stuff that we normally
wouldnt do. addiction doesnt only apply to chemical substances
like alcohol and drugs- behavior can be addictive too.
and just like physical addiction, people who are addicted to
behaviors like cutting can have real symptoms of withdrawal
such as severe stress and anxiety if they stop the behavior.

ONE CUT ;

"one cut. thats it. thats all," you told me.
"one cut will make you feel stress-free."

"one cut," i said. "thats all it takes.
one cut is such a big mistake."

"one cut," you said, "wont hurt. i swear.
one slit on your arm right there."

i watched you slit your arm,
and then i did too.
i dont know why- i guess it seemed like
a cool thing to do.

"one little cut," i told myself.
"i'll just be fine."
so i started cutting myself all the time.

i became addicted- i needed to cut my arm.
"a few more cuts," i told myself, "wont do any harm."

but then one day, my mom walked in.
"what are you doing? why'd you start and when?"

these are questions that she said,
all the memories rushed through my head.

i got help, and now im better.
so i wrote you this letter.

when i got home, i asked where you were.
"she never got help," mom said.
"something terrible happened to her."

"one cut. thats it. thats all," you said.
and you almost wound up dead.

i know one cut is all it takes.
one cut is such a huge mistake.

you might think that teens who cut are those with
obvious problems, but think again. cutters, or
self-mutilators, tend to be teens whose lives look
totally perfect on the outside- good family, good grades,
good friends. the bad thing is that these teens arent good
at expressing their pent-up emotions. they cut to relieve
the pain they feel inside.

WHERE DO YOU STAND?
do you know how to get help when you need it?

i feel like the shittest shit ever.
my eyes are tired from pouring out all my tears, everyday.
where were you when i needed you the most?
i guess im an emotional basket case. hhm.

FALY.
go figure. =)

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