nothing like this ♥

HAPPY 18th MONTH MY ONE AND ONLY PRECIOUS LOVE! <3
didnt i told you, we can make today awesome? see! see! =)

okay, actually, today wasnt that great. everything went wrong.
totally wrong. i dont know how i survived today.
sometimes i amaze myself. ha. xD

started the day fine. i just thought today would be as great as
yesterday. but nah. maths was horrible. i got accused for something
i didnt do. who wouldnt get pissed? tell me?! now! ha. =.=

fine, i admit. i did talked to razzan while mr sim was teaching.
but that doesnt mean i didnt do his worksheet while talking.
i was almost done with his worksheet when i realised there was
something wrong with the question. so i told him. he told me not to talk
to him because i didnt do his worksheet as i was busy talking and singing away.
now, tell me, if i didnt his worksheet, how would i know there was
something wrong with the question? is he trying to be funny or what. =.=

i was pissed. but razzan made it funny. so, i laughed at that incident instead
of cursing and swearing. thanks dude. but i hesitated to continue the rest
of the worksheet due to loss of mood. i hate maths now.
and mr sim.

physics totally changed my mood. mr choo's lesson was enjoyable.
and the thing that makes it perfect is the pizzas at the end of the lesson.
mr choo's treat. thanks cher. =)
oh, im gona miss ms lena lim when she leaves. she promised to bring back
hot spanish guys for all the girls in the class. haha. yeah, sure.
we'll definitely miss her loads. she's the best physics teacher ever. have a
very safe trip, ms lim! take care okay! oh, she hugged me! =D

went to central before DNT lesson. got grumpy while waiting for the rest.
they were taking their own sweet time. i dont know why, i got angry at boyf.
nyeh. sorry dear. then, the weather was hot as hell. it made me even
grumpier and very very restless. thank God the french fries was delicious.
or i would have screamed. =)

went to DNT. i saw my biggest and meanest enemy in the same workshop
as me. great. like as if seeing her in the same school isnt that bad. pfft.
i worked on my artefact. everything was okay. i clearly remembered mr loh
saying he's always there to help us. when i asked him for help, he nagged at me.
strike 1.

then, i did the measurements myself. i went to mr loh to check with him.
the only reason why i did that is to make sure i wont be scolded if i did it wrongly.
who wants to be scolded, right? guess what? he nagged at me. again.
he said he was spoon-feeding me. right.
strike 2.

then, i asked the instructor to help me take the materials. he too, nagged at me.
because the materials that i wanted was too small and it was a waste of his time.
and that i wrote the acrylic type wrongly.
strike 3.

after cutting the materials and screwing it onto my artefact, i rested. i stopped
doing my work. im tired. im tired of getting nagged at. im tired of getting scolded.
really, i am. i didnt know something this small could make a great impact.
i guess my tolerance level aint that high afterall.

mr loh then nagged and nagged and nagged and nagged at me for stopping.
he said i should have known what was next. i should have known what else i
could have done. i should have not stopped my work because everyone's rushing.
i should have asked him for help because he's always there to help. i should have
not wasted my time here because the dead line is nearing. i should have not just
sat there. that he wont help me anymore. and, that im horrible.

his words hurts. its as though someone ripped out your heart, tangled up all your
insides, smashing every piece of your brain right infront of you, stepped on
your face while you were sleeping or whatever. it really really hurts.
that was the last straw. i couldnt take it anymore. doesnt he know i stopped
because of him? i nearly gave up. note: nearly.
the end results is gona be mine afterall. he's not worth it. yeah, he's never worth it.

i continued my work. i went to the instructor to get my next materials.
he screamed at me. he clearly told me to stay away because he's busy.
where is all that bullshit, "the teachers and the instructors are here to help you." ?
where is all that? dont ever say those words again if neither of you mean it.
you're giving me false hopes. you're pulling me down. every each of you.

running away from the class really helps. it puts my mind off everything.
even if its only for a minute. went back to class and the tension was back.
i continued my work but only to realised time was up. class ends. finally.

the nagging doesnt end yet. mr loh made us stay abit longer to hear him nag.
all the while he was talking about me. he just didnt say my name.
thanks cher. i really appreciate all your help. you have always been there
to offer a helping hand. =D

right.

thanks for cheering me up, val. i love you. =)
thanks for the hugs, rebec and jolene. i love you both. =)
thanks for the hugs and kisses, boyf. i love you loads. =)

what a day.
oh well.

happy 18th month baby. for the 18th time. =D
sing for me again. =)

"tonight would be the night that i would fall for you, over again.."

FALY.
go figure. =)

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