nothing like this ♥

oh god.

my laptop died on me. the screen blanked out.
now im using my brother's comp. which my dad just installed internet in.
its stupid. cos i cant upload pictures and i cant download msn.
stupid. =/

anyway, this is a belated wish. =)
sorry for the late wish B. ily.

i could still remember our first year together. we were total opposites.
we were nothing alike. we think differently. we behaved differently.
we could never agree on things. we often argue about the littlest things.
things that you could never understand why. i thought it was really amazing
how we lasted a year knowing we're both different people.

we argued about whether Britney Spears was hot.

we argued about whether Steven Gerrard was hot.

we argued about the genre of songs we loved,
about which was better and nicer to listen to.

we argued about the colours red and purple.
he found purple gay and i found red just.. ugly.

we argued about whether panda bears are cute.

but you know what? these arguments actually made us closer.
we understood one another better.

second year was better than the first. well, it started out good..
we got along and i could never imagine how. ironically, our differences made
us alike. we got so used to each other that we start behaving alike. people kept
saying the way we do things, the way we behaved, the way we talked, the way
we smiled, everything were so similar.

we stopped arguing about Britney Spears. i started listening
to her songs because i know how much he loved her.

we stopped arguing about Steven Gerrard. he mentioned
once that he played really good.

we stopped arguing about the genre of songs because we found
ourselves listening to those songs and fell in love with them.

we stopped arguing about colours. i found red so pretty and
he found purple acceptable because i loved it.

we stopped arguing about panda bears. he knows how much i
loved them that he even took a post card with pandas for me.

but then, something went wrong along the way. just when i thought everything
was going on smoothly. i could still feel the pain. call me dramatic, but it was
really painful what he did to me. i told myself i would never forgive him.
but i couldnt imagine my life without him. we talked about it and everything
was alright again. i didnt forgive him nor did i forget.

if you know me, im really full of hatred. i will never forgive people and i will
never forget. so i hold grudges against him and believe me when i say, i was
still angry at him for what he did. every little thing he did wrong, you could
hear me screaming or see me walking away from him. i couldnt accept
anything he did. although i could see how hard he tries.

after a few very long talks with him, i wanted to change. i wanted to forgive
him. i wanted to stop hating people. most importantly, i wanted to stop hating him.
then everything went well again. we were getting along, just like the first year.

but guess what? it happened again.
shall not elaborate on that though.

we had a break. well, sort of.
it made me think alot about us, about everything.
it has finally made me decide.

everytime my friends heard me complain and cry about what he did to me.
but theres something they dont know. about how i made him cry..
not literally though. *damn* heh.

my ego was larger than life compared to his. i have never apologised and i
would never admit to my mistakes. i refused to give in when we're arguing.
i was always screaming at him, sometimes for no reason at all. and he has
never ever raised his voice at me. i will never blame myself for anything.
i really had a very bad temper.

sometimes i think his friends dont think im right for him.
right, guys?

but after all the shits i did to him, he still forgives me. without me having to
mention the word sorry to him. even after i screamed or walked away from
him for something he didnt do, he still picks up the phone and say, "i love you."
and when i asked if hes angry at me, he said no. he had no reason to.

i wonder how he could forgive me after all that i done
and i couldnt forgive him that one time..

i wonder how he could stay so patient after i threw my
tantrums at him all the time..

i wonder how he could tolerate my bloody huge ego
without a word of complain..

i wonder how he could still say "i love you" after i told
him "i hate you"..

i used to doubt his feelings for me. but not now, not ever again. he may
have hurt me several times but i think ive hurt him more than he does
to me. and i have to say, i salute this boyfriend of mine because i could
never find another like him.

this may all be cheesy to you guys.
but i love my boyfriend a whole lot more now.

because his imperfections made him perfect.

HAPPY 3rd YEAR BABY.
may we last so much longer than this. =)

FALY.
go figure. =)

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